Hey guise,
So there’s this large group of friends in my school called the clud.& it’s made up of douche bags,losers,loners,beautiful,hilariously obnoxious dumb asses. But all unique. Kids that like comics,to boys, & to Justin bieber. Pop kids, country kids, & hardcore rock kids. Kids that didn’t want to be on the in crowd, or didn’t fit in. It was a place where they could be themselves & not get judged. The group formed together within the end of 7th grade, just a random group of kids who lost their way, & found peace. It was a large family. Originally the group was not called the ‘Clud’, it was formed by a simple mistake. Instead of writing ‘Club’ with a B,they wrote it with a D. Thus the beginning of the ‘Clud’. As the years went by, more lost souls gathered & the group became larger. It was funny how everyone bonded immediately. They excepted each other with open arms.& everything was great. Until high school came. & the fighting began. Everyone says ‘high school changes people’, but i don’t believe that’s true. I think they let that go to their heads to much, cause they didn’t know what else to make of everyone fighting. A member of the clud met new people, & no one seemed to like it. Including me. That person started hanging with their new friends even more than they hung out with us.& everyone was hurt, & felt betrayed. So the fighting began, & everyone shunned that person. & that person appeared angry, & didn’t care. But really they where crying inside. & they just didn’t want to admit it. After awhile things died down a bit, tho the bickering continued secretly. Some started to tell others what one other had said, or lied about things & blamed it on others. Causing an uproar of fighting. Every other week a new fight had started. They continued to blame it on two other group members. Causing them to lose fate in their once ‘friends’. & with the lying & deceiving, it caused others to lose faith in the others. Which, is where they are now. Confused, frustrated , & hurt by one other. & they just want to give up on each other. The clud was once a place where you could escape to, & even when your having a horrible day, they can change it around & make it the best day of your life. I would know, cause I am apart of this young clan of douches. All of them, have grown on me. & i do NOT hate even one of them. They grew on me, even the ones i have had issues with in the past. I honestly can not imagine a day without them. They have helped me in life more then they realize. I probably wouldn’t even be here now if it wasn’t for them. & I’m sure a few of them could say the same. I don’t know why, we are fighting. I think we have all lost trust in one another so badly that we blow up even the littlest of things. From the anger & pain they have been suppressing. But hey, I’m no Dr.Phill. This is just my opinion. I miss the days where we were all carefree , & always believing in one another. The clud is like a family. My family. & if anyone dare to take that away from me i would kill to get them back. But what if it’s them themselves trying to take it all away ? & just want to forget about it & move on. ? I’m sorry. I can’t & most certainly wont allow it. But i don’t know how to fix everything. I can’t on my own. & this post will certainly not help. I just want everyone to know my view on the clud. & my feelings. The clud is my world, & my everything. & as being the douche bags of the century, i figured it was our duty to be their for other kids , & to let them know that it’s cool if your not rich, or perfect, or ‘popular’ . Just be yourself & don’t let others words bring you down. We where the kids who were rebellious against the preps & just lost all fucks to give.
I wonder, how, & why have have we lost sight of that ? Everyone has changed, i understand that. That’s natural, but why has everything turned out like this ? People are dropping like flies out of the group. & i know a few of you will say, ‘It doesn’t matter if the clud is gone, we are all still friends’ Then why get rid of it in the first place ? I think the memory of being those cool douches that we where is the only thing keeping us together. It’s our bond. & all we have left as a group of friends. I understand that we can all still be friends, but, it wont be the same.
This my opinion & my thoughts.
~Kate~ XX
Btw this was suppose to post yesterday but my wifi was being a bitch.
